Last week I lost my best friend. Although his physical form would be described as a dog, Jake was so much more than that. As an avid animal lover, I will openly admit all dogs are awesome, but Jake, he was something special. If you met him, you remembered him. A healer, he had the ability to lift your spirit and fix what was broken. Sensitive and sweet, he just wanted to be around those he loved, and that was many. Jake was able to understand what was spoken to him. I don’t know how to explain it, but he truly understood human emotions and feelings. He taught me many things In the four short years I had to pleasure of knowing him. One of the most important lessons was fear. I was always scared to be home alone while Jorge traveled for work. Now having a 65 lb pit bull would make most people feel safe, but not me, my trouble went deeper than that. On nights I wanted to let my mind keep me up into the daylight, he would lay his big head on my lap, sigh, and say with his beautiful human-esk eyes, “every thing will be okay. I’m here, your safe, so it’s time to get some sleep now.” I would feel him in my heart and know that he was right. Jake was fearless. He made me realize that fear was just an object of our thoughts. Fear does not exist, it is created.
My life feels very empty without him. When he left this physical world, a part of me was taken with him. I’m no stranger to death. I respect it in its form of being natural. But there was nothing natural about this, he was only seven and healthy as can be. In less than one week my baby went from running, jumping, and pulling Jorge on a skateboard to not being able to walk, eat, or pee on his own. The doctors first told us it was epilepsy, than later decided it could be a tumor. We knew they were wrong about both. An animal communicator relayed the message from Jake that it was an infection of some sort, from a toxin, parasite, or amoeba. He kept showing her a trip to the dog beach. My gut told me it had something to do with the water. By the time the animal hospital finally gave us the antibiotics we asked for on the first visit, it was too late, he was already gone.
Unfortunately we will never really know what happened, we will never have the answers for which we seek.
On monday, I attended the weekly lightworkers class in the hopes of lifting my spirit. After a deep meditation/chakra clearing I received a message from my newest spirit guide, Jake. It became clear that I needed to let all the anger and guilt go. Once I did this, all the heaviness in my heart lifted. It was so easy to want to blame the animal hospital, or my self for not seeing the signs sooner. I realized to move on and heal, I needed to let it go. That’s what Jake would want, I know because he told me so. He’s in a happier place now, he’s able to watch over all his loved ones at once. Jake changed so the lives of so many people in his time on earth. He will never be forgotten. I am extremely blessed to of had the opportunity to meet and love someone like him. Always in my heart, forever in my mind, I know we will meet again buddy, another place, another time. <3 <3 <3 <3