When I left my secure job as an instruction designer at a company who valued me, most people thought I was crazy or stupid or both. I heard things like “In this economy? Your leaving a paycheck for nothing? That’s just not sensible.. ” etc etc, you get the picture. If I let the opinions of others effect me I would still be working my 9-5 job, miserable and passionless. To me it came down to one important factor; my happiness, and as they say, money really can’t buy it. “I’m only I’m 25,” I reminded myself, “I don’t have any kids, I don’t have a mortgage, if I don’t have the courage to do this now, I never will.” The faith inside me bellowed, “if not now, when!?” So I told my common sense to take a hike, trusted my instinct, and I made the decision to free fall. I let go of the outcome, which is something I am still conditioning myself to do more of.
In the past couple months I’ve been happier than I have in a really long time. I’ve had time to do me and rediscover what I’m passionate about. Things are enjoyable again, everything doesn’t feel like a chore on a list of never ending things I have to do. I have time to stop and enjoy the moment I am in, and to me that is priceless. Don’t get me wrong, there are definitely things I miss about having a steady paycheck, but we’ve been making it work and it has actually really helped me to learn the difference between NEEDS and WANTS. I remind my self daily how fortunate I am to have a partner like Jorge who supports me and my decision.
Now, I totally get that not everyone can just quit there day job and I’m sure as hell not telling you to do just that. What I am telling you though is to not let the opinion of others affect any choice or decision you make, no matter how small or big it is. What’s important is how YOU feel about yourself and your life. So you can’t quit your job, but you can make some time for you. Go on that trip you have been wanting to take, cross off an item on your bucket list, mediate at lunch, learn that new language, start a blog, take a class, make time for YOU and YOUR dreams. Find your passion and follow it! Again, I’ll reiterate this, if not now, when?! Life is meant to be enjoyed. If you’re sitting around hating every moment, then you are doing something wrong.
By default of being human, every now and then the doubt attempts to trickle in and scare me into thinking WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING. When this happens, I simply remind myself of why I made the decision I did. I do not let the fear own me anymore. So what, my parents can’t brag about my promotion at thanksgiving dinner, but they can brag about the fact that I’m happy. Honestly, in today’s world, how many people can say that.